Change in Direction
How many of you dreamed of what you wanted to be from a very young age? How many of you actually followed through with that dream? How many of you went for it but unfortunately it didn’t work out? And how many of you went for the practical choice? I guess I would fall somewhere in the middle. I did have a dream to be a musician and I moved to Los Angles to pursue that dream but unfortunately I didn’t have the support from my parents to sign a parent plus loan I needed to fund my education, so that dream went down the drain. So I moved back home and took some time out to figure out what it was I wanted and what was within my reach. Let’s be honest here, not everyone is born with a silver spoon in their mouth, so some of us have to figure out a way to pay for our education, especially if you’re from the States.
Long story short I ended up graduating with a degree in Fashion Design and Product Development. I did loads of internships and worked for smaller brands, but in the end I became a stylist and also went on to have my own kidswear and womenswear brand. But let me just say my entire career in fashion was a struggle, fuck me, a massive fucking struggle. I worked my ass off, working a million hours, writing a million emails, going to every social networking event possible and the amount of money I spent on making my brands work, my god, in the end I couldn’t do it anymore. I was exhausted. But how do you let go of something that has defined you for so long? I honestly didn’t know anything else. Fashion was my life!!!!! But one day I woke up and it wasn’t anymore.
So here I am now still trying to move forward in a direction that is right for me, not a direction that I think I should be going. I’ve always been a bit of a hippie, into spirituality, but not in the form of going to church or anything. I grew up in a fundamentalist Christian Church and I’ve removed myself from the toxic environment. I’m talking about digging deep, going inward and getting to know yourself kind of spirituality, connecting with self, energy, frequencies, a greater power and with nature.
I’ve had to remove myself from the societal bullshit that has been ingrained so deep in me. It’s given me the chance to find out what truly lights me up. I started The Future Edit because I felt that I wasn’t the only one feeling like I was meant to do more. Like something was calling me but I wasn’t sure how to hear the voice clearly or find my way to the light. Where does one go to seek help when lost, what kind of tools are out there to find your voice, to hear your intuition and to listen to your gut? Is therapy really for everyone or is something more therapeutic better? These are all questions I had. And if you’ve just started your journey, I’m sure you have them too.
Point is, if what you’re doing in your life is not lighting you up, then most likely it’s not meant for you. Yes I understand we all have things we don’t want to do, like pay bills and work jobs we don’t necessarily like until we can work one we do like, not everyone has the luxury of up and quitting their job, but you can find small things to change.
For example, find a form of mediation that works for you, allow yourself time to go for a walk during the week to your favourite spot, join a dance class, learn to paint, find a therapist, try baking, get friends together once a week for games and dinner or just drinks. Utilise what you have within your reach, start small, and try things that keep you in the moment. Change is good but change is even better when we first can stand still and appreciate the moment. If you think about it, all we have is now. Tomorrow will be now, in a few minutes will be now. Now is how we make the change for the better.
So I say all this to remind you that change is necessary for growth. If something isn’t working in your life, then find a way to change it. Sometimes it can be hard to let go of something we’ve known for so long, but as soon as you let go, that’s when the magic happens.